33/34 weeks

And so November has arrived. And work is coming to a close forever on November 20. I will no longer be Hilary, hair colorist. I will be Hilary, stay at home mom...of 2. And then nursing student in May. 

Well that's scary to actually put into perspective. Yikes. 

But I can do this! 

My parents came for an awesome visit this last weekend. It's so nice having them. They watched Tyler's Spartan race he did through Miller Park Saturday morning. Which was really hard to be a spectator at because it was all over and you couldn't really watch. Still fun regardless. He didn't train for it... But still placed 22nd out of 3,200 people. Id call that a win! 

(Tyler on the far right) 

My mom cooks, cleans, watches Sloane, while my dad and Tyler can talk football, and my little brother too. Of course Sloane is obsessed with dogs, and couldn't wait for their puppy Lola to tag along too. 

Also surreal that the next time I see them.. We will be a family of 4. And I will be even more of a hot mess then I already am. 

Ah! 

(Last time I do my moms hair in my salon!)

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How far along are you? I think 34 weeks 

Weight gain? 20 pounds. What a difference eating semi healthy makes. Yesterday at lunch our waitress had no idea I was pregnant until I stood up, she told me I was so cute. We also got free chipotle because my "belly is so cute" ...not sure if they think I'm fat and wanted to give me a free meal. But I'll take it! 

What's up with my body: peeing at least 5 times a night. Constipated (tmi?) but overall feeling pretty good! 

(Really tall girl in there!) 

Emotions: not too bad... But maybe my husband should comment on this. 

Food cravings: my mom made her famous chocolate cake. I had 2 huge pieces. Oops. I also love salad, only because I crave balsamic dressing. 

Growing baby: well. Measuring 5 weeks larger. And baby is already 20 inches long. Is this real life? Tall baby! Also she is sideways. Breach. Again! But her head is under my left rib! My rib feels pretty bruised. 

Labor signs: Braxton hicks still when I'm on my feet for too long. 

Gender: a girl! 

We can't wait to meet you sweet active baby! 

Perception of motherhood

-Socrates

As I creep the blogging world often it seems to be a trend of look how awesome my life is, combined with opinionated mothers, and the occassional funny post. 

I am surely guilty of all of these but, 

As I sit and read and gaze at pictures of moms with perfect hair, and beautiful make up, and a spotless kitchen in the background, and being able to work full time, but stay at home and still find time to blog and entertain their kids... I think, am I a bad mother because I can't do these things? I can hardly keep up with unloading the dish washer without all the bowls ending up on the floor and the knives being thrown at my face by an 18 month old who is just trying to help. 

Or the multiply family pictures people are able to afford, and the numerous baby carriers, strollers, new shoes, DIY projects... I can't keep up with this perception of what motherhood or should I say parenthood is. 

Sloanes favorite outfits are the ones that are handed down to use from our good friends. They are worn in, and comfy, her favorite toy? Isn't a toy, but running around the gym with mom and dad, and our monthly photo shoots I'd love to afford, happen on my iPhone daily. 

Our living room is never company ready, and I drop Sloane off at daycare in my yoga pants, but I don't even do yoga. 

I will tell you, that Sloane gets endless amounts of love, attention and exercise. She is showered with praise. How do I brag and depict this on the internet? By showing off her extremely fashionable outfits that my mom shouldn't have bought her? Will that show how awesome of a mom I am? 

Kids will never remember the 100$ jacket you bought them when they were 2, in fact, they will probably say " mom why did you put me in that!" 

Sometimes I need to think about what really is the reality of motherhood, its a messy, unorganized way of loving your child. This is what being a mom is to me. 

We do NOT have it all together, but together we have it all.

Apple of our eye. 

31 week update

I have been slacking in all blog posts as I'm still not sure how I feel about it. 

But Tyler is consumed with football today and somehow he has convinced Sloane to jump on the train. 

Snapped a shot of them right as a type ;) loves to jump on dad's belly because she can't on moms.

During Labor Day weekend we went into preterm labor at the Minnesota state fair, scary to say  the least. Luckily my mom and dad had Sloane and we were able to be in he he hospital alone. 

I was so mad when the nurse was writing our names on the white board and then asked what the babies name was to put up there.

"Um no lady, we are not having this baby today."

She then went ahead and called it 'sunshine' which also annoyed me.

*Note to self, when you are a nurse don't do this.*

I have told my work I am no longer go back after this baby but haven't been able to tell my clients because I am fully booked up until the day I leave and they don't want my clients to cancel and get upset. Completely understandable. But my clients that are nurses...I am making an extra effort to keep in contact with them so when I am done with school I will have an in :) 

Because let's face it, in life, its not about what you know, but WHO you know. 

Our wedding season has also come to a close as we had 7 weddings and only attended 4, thank god. 

It's so stressful/annoying to find suitable clothes to fit the bump that aren't black (I have to wear black as a dress code to work so that's what most of my wardrobe consists of) and also cheap, because I know I will only wear this dress tops 2 times.

Another side note about clothes buying lately- I am only buying shirts that button- or sweaters that are open in the front that I can wear with a nursing cami. How annoying is it to lift your shirt up and have it all bunched at your neck as you're trying to see if your baby baby is latched on ok and it keeps slipping down..I have learned this lesson the 2nd time around. 

I have also learned that less is more. Do i need a baby swing and a bouncer and 4 carriers and a million "cute" out fits to put her in? Heck no. If you have money to spend on these things, by all means go for it. Try out what they like/what you like, as for me, I need a good 10 sleepers, my boobs, some diapers, and a rock and play sleeper. I'm set.

I'm really looking forward to my 6 months off from work and then starting school! Oh and I CANT WAIT TO CROSSFIT. 

My husband at the Granite Games.

I am not even allowed to run more then a block with Sloane due to the preterm labor and bleeding in bye be beginning. Although it has been best for my body, it is killing me to not be in shape. I am eating so much more healthy this time around then I did with Sloane and it definitely makes a difference. I do enjoy cookies, DQ, chocolate chips...but not everyday. And lots and lots of veggies and fruits is helping me keep my sanity! 

Apple orchard today! 

How far along are you? 31 weeks! I believe 32 soon... It's amazing that you forget to keep track  the second time.  

Weight gain? 18 pounds. ( compared to my 29 with Sloane at this point!)

What's up with my body: hard to carry my 18 month old around, but because I have been making a conscious effort to eat healthier- I don't feel nearly as sluggish, as well as my skin looks great too! who said girls steal your beauty ;) 

Emotions: a Roller coaster. I can't wait to be with my husband when I'm not pregnant...I have been pregnant with him more then I have not. He must really love me. 

Food cravings: Sweets. I try to hold back, but I like chocolate chips in my oatmeal. I try to bake lots of paleo sweets...not so much for my husband, but for myself hehe I am addicted to chocolate almond milk too! So yummy! 

Growing baby: well she is measuring 4 weeks ahead,not just my belly, the actual baby is big. A big tall, squirmy, way more active baby. My ribs are sore when I cough...she will be such an athlete! We hope. Haha! 

I told Dr.P that she is a lot more active then Sloane was she told me this hilarious story about her son who was the most active in her belly, and when she would car pool to school the other moms said "Does he have attention hyper active disorder?" She replied no, he's just very active. I'm not sure if she was in denial, but I do have ADD, and my husband is a behavioral anylst, so we have the perfect combo if this is hr case. But maybe she will just be super active ;)

I did see a psychic again and she told me this baby will be a lot more "fierce and active" ....her name we picked means fierce, and she sure is active. Cool!

Labor signs: baxton hicks when I'm on my feet for a while. Trying to drink lots of water but hate getting up 6+ times in The night to pee!

Gender: unfortunately for me, my husband told me he wasn't excited about the baby unless we find out the sex, obviously I wanted him to be excited! So u,tra sound number 2, we found out. I'm sure you picked up on it, but yes, another GIRL! Can't wait for the sisters to be close in age and be buds...let's hope. 

Our little cook :) 

These 2 are my everything! Matchy. 

1 year anniversary

September 22,2013! Has 1 year flown by.... 

(A Facebook post that I wanted to save) 

 After I introduced Tyler to my grandparents after only dating 3 weeks, I had lunch with my grandma the next day, she asked me, 

"Do you think you're going to marry Tyler ?" 

With no hesitation I replied "yes." 

She exclaimed "I think that's a good choice." 

It was just this overwhelming feeling of not knowing what love is, to knowing. 

I always wanted to share that story at our wedding, but I never ended up getting to it. 

He lets me call him a million times a day, and text him whenever I want. 

He encourages me to try new things. 

He works 2 jobs, and helps kids with Autism spread their wings and do things nobody thought they could. He manages to make fitness a priority and is pretty good at this Crossfit thing. On top of all that he is a Dad first, he is fully devoted to Sloane and is diaper changing king. 

We have started new jobs, new career paths, had a child and one on the way, bought our first car, and learned that we are terrible money savers. 

Someday we will buy our first house together and I can decorate however I want. Because he lets me do that kind of stuff. 

Most importantly we have grown even deeper in love everyday. 

We may not have it all together, but together we have it all. 

Happy 1 year anniversary to my sweet Tyler. Xoxoxo 

My 10 day vacation with Sloaney

Thursday night Sloane has a fever. She's uncomfortable and hot and we leave for Tennessee the next morning. 

My poor baby. 

Naturally I wouldn't take her for just a fever, and thought it was just teeth anyways, but because we would be in the car for 12 hours driving I wanted to bring her in to make sure. 

I picked up work Friday. 

Dumb decision as I hadn't even packed for myself barely. 

Welcome to motherhood. 

I got off at 3, met Tyler at the doctors and my sweetheart looked miserable. 

Her temp was 103, and the dr said just a virus and went back and forth about suggesting us to go or not...

"We'll you are pregnant..." 

"She is sick..." 

"But... It might only last 24 hours" 

I was only going to meet my mom in Rockford Illinos that night, just an hour and half away and stay in the hotel. 

So I thought if things go ok tonight then we  continue to head west, if not ill just turn around and spend my vacation in good ole Milwaukee with a sick baby. 

So fun! 

That night in the hotel with my mom, sister, cousin, and sick Sloane was just shy of hell.

She was up every 45 minutes, hot, screaming, shaking, I put cold wash clothes on her. 

She was miserable. 

6am rolls around. 

She wakes up. 

Says "milk!" With a big smile. 

No fever! 

It has broke. 

With just 30 minutes of sleep under my belt we were ready to start our 12 hour journey! 

The first 3 hours were fairly good, 

Sloane slept. I called ppl on the phone. 

The next 9....not my favorite time. 

Peed up her shirt. 

Pooped up the back. 

In Kentucky she puked all over when my mom pulled her out of the car seat. 

I panicked and stripped her completely naked at the rest stop and let her run around. 

(That's normal in Kentucky right?)

We had only 2 hours of the leg left before we made it to our smokey mountain mansion/cabin. 

And I was having a complete meltdown of regret for bringing my little girl on the trip when she was feeling so lousy. 

We made it to the house, and she perked up just as I was started to feel sick from all the switch backs to get to the top of mountain.

But once we were there I swear we were in heaven. 

So beautiful. 

And scary how high up we were. 

Sunday morning on deck. This picture doesn't do the view justice. 

Being a single parent is HARD WORK. 

Although I had the help of my mom, she is still grandma to Sloane and gives her whatever she wants to eat at times and I have to deal with what happens in her diaper afterwards... 

Not so fun. 

The house 

We went hiking, shopping, and just laid around the house playing in the pool. 

A relaxing 4 days. 

Hiking! 

"Tennessee, Tennessee, ain't no place if rather be."

Had to do a little hair color for my aunts on the trip too! Balayage! They have great hair if I do say so myself. 

A little jog in the mountains on the last day. 

Wednesday late afternoon Sloane and I had to hit the road to be home in time for Mike and Brits rehearsal dinner Thursday night at 5! And then wedding on Friday. 

It was yet another adventure for just me and my sweetie....

12 hour car rides get to us... 

Hotel snuggles. 

Mom sucks at folding the pack and play. (Really missing Tyler at this point) 

Alas we made it!!! With only 2 hours to get unloaded and ready! 

 One of the only pics I took at the rehearsal dinner. Boys and their knives mike got them. 

Kind of freaky! 

Then Friday morning I did bridal hair. 

All. Morning. 

I cried afterwards. 

I was so exhausted. 

And still had the wedding to attend. 

But it was great and Tyler did an awesome job with the best man speak. 

He's so sexy when he speaks. ;) 

Wedding! 

Happy couple :) 

He's such a hunk. 

And then Saturday we went swimming with our friends at his parents house! 

Sunday we were off to the zoo with the newly married couple and their son John who is the same age and Sloane. 

Zoo! 

Then Monday back to work! 

It's been over a week and finally unpacked my suitcase yesterday! 

(I have problems) 

My mother in law rented a cabin up north this weekend so that's where we are headed... Although a nice weekend of doing NOTHING would be great... 

But we are always on the go! 

Good thing Sloane is now a pro car-rider. 

I leave you with this adorable picture of Sloane on her new potty! 

More to come on this someday... 

Hopefully soon :) 

24.

 

I was married at 22.

 

Had my first child at 22.

I was into my career as a haircolorist by 19.

I will have my 2^nd child at 24.

I am going back to school to be Nurse at 24.

I am fun.

I am a mother.

I am a wife.

I love my life.

 

I like fashion, I like hair, I love sports, and I love babies.

I truly believe that thoughts become things.  I forever thought about being a young mother, young and married that is. Not young as in 16 and pregnant. ( that show irritates me.)

I tried to keep up with my friends who were still in college and stayed up late drinking and partying, only to roll out of bed and throw their hair in a ponytail and be ok with throwing up at work because it wasn’t their Career, it was their Job. Their job to get by with paying rent as they persued their dreams in college. But for me- it was different. I would want to do the same, but couldn’t. I was forever feeling like “mom” of the group because I HAD to be the responsible one, because nobody wants their hair done by a hungover girl with sloppy makeup and a green sickly face.

I Regret calling in sick to work a couple times now. Due to my irrisponbile self. Sometimes I just wanted to join in and not be mom for one night, and sometimes I regretfully did.

By the time I was 22, I was already 4 years into my career. I felt stettled. I was never opening looking for my husband, he just kind of…fell into my lap. And so it was, engaged at 22. Nobody knows when they will find their soulmate. I just happen to find mine at young age. Well… young to all of you.

And so it begins. My life as a haircolorist- turned mom-turned wife- turned nursing student. At the meer age of 23, going on 24. This is my blog of the mommy stories, my struggles, my failures, my happiness, my life.

I probably wont have amazing tutorials on how I redorcated my 2^nd childs nursery, because lets face it, I don’t have time for that bullshit. But I do have time to envy all of your tutorials and wish I had the time and energy to do it all.

I don’t even know who will read this blog. But hello to you all! And welcome!

my hot hubby :)

 

4th of July Krueger fun!

We love the 4th of July! Tyler has 4 days off and I couldn't be more excited! 

Sloane and I Slept in until the late hours of 8 am. What a treat! 

Tyler had his crossfit memorial WOD for the 19 firefighters that died in Arizona. 

Sloane and I got to the gym just as he finished. (First might I add) and 40 minutes of go all out, as hard as you can, music blasting, 50 people all pushing themselves, cheering eachother on. You'll never get to your fittest without a little healthy compition daily. Just a small plug for crossfit America everyone :) 

---holy sheet! 

Side note: I am the worst speller. You will learn to deal with it. 

After the workout we had a cookout with our gym friends. 

Owner of our gym (also named Tyler) and my husband with their daughters 

Then we headed down to Tyler's dads in Illinois for some fireworks, more food and fun! It was great to see all the grandkids from his wife Debbie's side. They all flew/drove in from all over. 

Tyler and I even planned our 1 year anniversary/baby moon to California in a couple months to stay with his step brother! He worked for apple and help create the iPhone5- even offered to autograph it for us ;) and now works for google. I am sure we will be well taken care of staying with them. 

Sloane jammed out to music, played with cousins, squirt guns, and snuggled with her aunts. 

Squirt gun! 

Tyler's dad Tom just showing off his new fishing boat :) 

Yesterday we stopped at our local coffee shop and bakery right down the street from us. Early. Because I forgot we ran out of milk and Sloane is a milk addict and gives us attitude if we don't have her sippy cup of milk right away. 

Milk addict Sloane and dad at RocketBaby Bakery. 

Then to Nana Loris for a little swim! 

Tyler and I had some free time to ourselves while Sloane napped at Nana's for a couple hours. 

And thennnn...and then... 

We spent 8 hours at SUMMERFEST! A huge music festival. Damn it was a good time and Sloane was good as gold. 

As you can see, we take her every where and do everything. Because there are no restrictions when you have kids. 

Playground inside Summerfest! She's so Brave! (And dads so cute following her!)

Over looking lake Michigian. A great location for a music festival. 

We ended the night with a little Delta Routine! Tyler's good friend Nick from his childhood is the lead singer. We jam hard to them. Sloane was sleep jamming with her arms in the air and clapping. 

We left at 10pm! 

Ooofta! 

Bar B que with friends tonight! 

We stay busy round here! 

I almost forget I'm even pregnant. 

Bump!